I Bid Farewell To MMC!

I am leaving the company at last. I really can not "tahan" the petrol consumption. Damn expensive man.

My plan for this coming Sunday; wake up late and then have a cup of coffee.

And then I shall continue sleeping again, or should I say hibernating. Aaaah...Rest at last.....

No more of this feeling as I look forward for work every afternoon hehehehehe

Alas, to all my friends in MMC "All The Best"

Singning off from MMC,

Happy 30th Birthday Garfield!!!!

As I was reading the comics online, Garfield of course, I just noticed that the fat cat is 30 years old in human years this year!!!

Just to let you guys know, this fat orange cat has been accompanying me for years and I can still enjoy his cynical and sarcastic comments and attitude :) He is just sooo adorable, minus the fact that I am so in love with cats. And I must admit that Garfield was & still is a phenomenon to the world of comic strip.

Garfield's 1st appearance

Garfield's 1st Birthday

Garfield's 2nd Birthday

Garfield's 3rd Birthday

Garfield's 4th Birthday

Garfield's 5th Birthday

Garfield's 6th Birthday

Garfield's 7th Birthday

Garfield's 8th Birthday

Garfield's 9th Birthday

Garfield's 10th Birthday

You get the rest of it right? Everything was taken from http://www.garfield.com/. Thank you so much Garfield, for being part of my life :)

Lorna's Last Day!!!Free At Last!!!

Today is; unfortunately; Lorna's last day. Well, I must say its hurrah hurrah for her. The rest of the CDI clan; Me & Jai's hurrah hurrah will only be this Friday morning 20th of June exactly at 1 Am. Then we can shout Merdeka!!! As for Azzam it will be next week. And as for Nawa - I don't really know. He did mentioned some plans of his, but still not sure yet what's the main & final plan. Plus as he still works in MMC I dare not mentioned anything hehehehehe. I choose to remain loyal to my friends, eventhough some of them find it funny & amusing to stab my back. Sheesh. karma, what goes around comes around.
Anyway, Me, Jai & Azzam got called in today by Manager and was asked about our absence yesterday. I told her I already text her informing her about my back ache (apparently it attacks again-sakit giler!!!) - or so I think. She did confirmed that she did not receive my message. "You guys are coming from Damansara, car pooling together, yesterday was a Sunday some more". She put it in such a way as if we are having a conspiracy on not coming to work yesterday. Firmly I said; "We are not having any plans or conspiracy about not coming to work yesterday. I only found out about Jai & Azzam not coming to work only after I called them to informed them that I will not be able to come to work yesterday. But I did not asked them whether have they text you or not". Personally, I don't think its any of my business to ask them anyway. We have been informed about the procedures and so I believed that it is a responsibilityone needs to fulfilled. And thats it. I said it once & I will not repeat myself. I can see that she had already made her decision on her opinions on what happened. From the look of it she already has her opinions (and sticking to it too). As for us, she has already chosen the verdict for us. Guilty. So why bother to go around and telling people that we are not as what we are thought to be? I don't like being the clown at anybody's expenses. So I chose to let time do the talking for me. Easier. Save time. Save energy.

Happy Father's Day To My Beloved Babah & Ayah

Its Father's Day again!!! It's the 3rd Sunday of the month and again the nation is celebrating Father's Day. Well everyday to me is a celebration day but I do get to buy cards with the wanted specific message (such as Father's day, mother's Day, Teacher's Day etc) only available on these certain dates. Normally in the past what I shall do is to purchase more than one cards & will be using it at other dates of the year. During my college days. I remember one card contains the history" Another driving force behind the establishment of the integration of Father's Day was Mrs. Sonora Smart Dodd, born in Creston, Washington. Her father, the Civil War veteran William Jackson Smart, as a single parent reared his six children in Spokane, Washington. She was inspired by Anna Jarvis's efforts to establish Mother's Day. Although she initially suggested June 5, her father's birthday, she did not provide the organizers with enough time to make arrangements, and the celebration was deferred to the third Sunday of June. The first June Father's Day was celebrated on June 19, 1910, in Spokane, WA, at the Spokane YMCA. (Well, plus minus that's the contain of the card I gave to my Babah). That was the first glimpse of Father's Day history that I got to know of. A bit "poyo" as I thought about my Babah - who is a Military Personnel as well. Some other sources for your reading convenience http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Father.

Me & Babah having discussions on life & economics crisis - petrol especially grrrrr!!!!

Nope, fortunately (for me) & unfortunately for my Babah & Ayah I haven't yet bring home any guys to be introduced to the family. And my guess is; its still a long way to go. Thank you so very much for understanding my decision & allowing me to hold on to it. Appreciate it very much.

Happy Father's Day Babah. I love you so much!!!!

Happy Father's Day Ayah. I love you so very much!!!

I will be adding some more to this post soon don't worry. For the time being I am just "idea"less. That, by the way is not a proper usage of English word; so please refrain yourself from using it okay? :)

Mama...Mama...I Love You

A Song For Mama - Boys II Men

You taught me everything
And everything youve given me
I always keep it inside
Youre the driving force in my life, yeah
There isnt anything
Or anyone I can be
And it just wouldnt feel right
If I didnt have you by my side
You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
Youll always be you always will be the girl
In my life for all times
Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you
Mama, mama youre the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin you is like food to my soul
Youre always down for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong...Yes you did
And you took up for me
When everyone was downin me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on
There was so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me
And say to me I can face anything
And no one else can do
What you have done for me
Youll always be...You will always be the girl in my life

I Love You Bonda

Mother's Day Celebration

Happy Mother's Day to All Mothers Out There

Mama - Spice Girls

She used to be my only enemy and never let me be free

Catching me in places that I knew I should'nt be

Every other day I crossed the line I didn't mean to be so bad

I never thought you would become the friend I never had

Back then I didn't know why

Why you were misunderstood

So now I see through your eyes

All that you did was love

Mama I love you...Mama I care

Mama I love you... Mama my friend.

You're my friend...

I didn't want to hear it then but I'm not ashamed to say it now

Every little thing you said and did was right for me

I had a lot of to think about, about the way I used to be

Never had a sense of my responsibility

Back then I didn't know why

Why you were misunderstood

So now I see through your eyes, all that you did was love

Mama, I love you... Mama, I care

Mama, I love you... Mama ,my friend.

You're my friend...

But now I'm sure I know why,

Why you were misunderstood

So now I see through your eyes

All I can give you is love is love

Mama I love you... Mama, I care

Mama, I love you... Mama, my friend,

You're my friend...

Mama, I love you... Mama ,I care

Mama, I love you... Mama, my friend,

You're my friend...

I Love You Bonda

No Elimination

Seperti biasa saya menantikan sessi terapi saya yang hanya akan bermula jam 9 malam. Maka selepas waktu kerja di BTC, saya mengisi perut dengan :) & Kak Lorna di The Chicken Rice Shop. Pergh gabungan Kak lorna & :) sememangnya boleh memenuhkan meja makan hehehe. FYI, Kak Lorna ada temujanji dengan :) petang tadi. Temujanji dengan Perodua Myvi hehehehe. A new car for her, Insyaallah. Malamnya pula :) bermain futsal maka saya agak berseorangan menonton AF6.

Persembahan dimulakan dengan lagu bonus- pemanas konsert. Lagu popular Andy Flop Poppy & Misha Omar "Sembunyi" & Melly Goeslaw & Eric "Ada Apa Dengan Cinta". Kelihatannya pembahagian lagu tidak begitu seimbang bilamana kelihatan ketara hanya sebilangan pelajar dilihat menyanyi dan melontarkan suara. Yang lain sekadar menyanyikan beberapa bait atau mungkin sekadar memenuhkan pentas semata-mata agar tidak kelihatan kosong & lapang. Namun apa yang menyentuh hati pastinya apabila penyanyi kesayangan saya Aishah menyanyikan lagu "Syurga Di Telapak Kaki Ibu" sempena Hari Ibu yang jatuh pada keesokan harinya Ahad 11 Mei. Sayu ajer mendengarkannya. She still has the voice despte a slightly large size - cayalah Kak Aishah!!! Gambar gambar pengkritik and pelajar pelajar bersama ibubapa mereka di siarkan di layar untuk tontonan umum. Para pelajar diberikan sejambak bunga untuk diberikan kepada ibu masing masing kecuali Stanly (semoga ibunya cepat sembuh) & Stacy ( walaupun kelihatan gambar ahlikeluarganya berada di kerusi penonton).

Persembahan malam itu dimulakan dengan Toi menyanyikan lagu "Kasih Berduka" - nyanyian asal oleh M Osman (Could it be Aziz & Zulkifli's dad? - I am so bad with the entertainment highlights in Malaysia). At laSt Toi, an IMPROVEMENT!!! Walaupun persembahannya tiada yang gah, tetapi sangatlah memuaskan hati saya berbanding persembahan persembahannya di sepanjang konsert AF yang lalu. Akhirnya Toi berjaya membuatkan saya kurang dosa di malam itu - dosa mengutuk sudah tentunya. Nyanyian yang kurang mendatar, gerak badan yang rileks mngikut muzik - thank god at last he managed to entertain people. Ada peningkatan dan sudah pasti saya tidak mempersoalkan undian peminat yang masih menyokong Toi selama ini. Berbaloi undian yang diterima dengan kredit yang dilaburkan oleh peminat peminat Toi. Syabas Toi.

Persembahan dari pelajar yang amat saya nantikan - Nadia seterusnya menyusul. Benar kata Ramli MS persembahan Nadia tiada impaknya yang besar walaupun seperti biasa dia belum pernah mengecewakan peminat yang sentiasa terhibur. Memetik kata kata Paul Moss sewaktu memberikan komen terhadap persembahan Siti Sarah Raisuddin di dalam Malaysian Idol tidak lama dahulu - "Bila kita tahu kemampuan Sarah, kita mengharapkan sesuatu yang luar biasa dalam persembahan seterusnya". Saya kira begitu juga dengan perihal Nadia. We know she can sing so she needs something to make us awe and say wow. She needs to work out her X-factor, poor girl. She needs to understand now people are having a much higher expectations towards her ability to sing & entertain. But I seriuosly hope (and vote) she will make it to the finals.
Stanly belted out "Naluri Lelaki" (originally sang by Samsons). He looks and moves so energetically on the stage and down on the floor with the crowd. I am happy that he was increasingly improving after a few gloomy weeks. Bangkit semula Stanly - you can do it. Sememangnya ketara kelihatan Stanly dapat "bersatu" dengan lagu dan mempamerkan persembahan yang menarik tanpa kelihatan terpaksa atau dipaksa. Satu bonus untuk Stanly dalam menghiburkan penonton & pengundinya malam itu.
Riz & "Laskar Cinta"nya gagal menghiburkan saya. Saya perlu bersetuju dengan Kak Ogy bila mengatakan persembahan Riz pada malam itu adalah persembahannya yang paling teruk. Saya tak nafikan lagu itu sememangnya sukar - tapi sampai bila Riz hendak menyanyikan lagu lagu yang kurang mencabar & memihak kepadanya? Sudah seringkali Riz diberikan lagu yang berpihak kepada vokalnya & nampaknya percubaan Ramli MS untuk "mencuba" sesuatu yang baru kepada Riz ternyata gagal.
Nubhan memeruskan persembahan hambar yang dimulakan oleh Riz sebelum tadi. Saya langsung gagal memahami pucuk pangkal muzik & lagu yang cuba di sampaikanoleh Nubhan. Sayang Nubhan punya suara unik tapi malas belajar menyebabkan dia semakin teruk tanpa kelihatan apa apa peningkatan baik dari segi nyanyian mahupun persembahan. Hanya undian kesian & simpati yang menyelamatkan Nubhan dari disingkirkan. Tak boleh salahkan peminat peminat Nubhan sebab muka dia memang comel kan? But now we know who votes for talents & who votes for looks. Peminat sekarang semakin bijak? Pengundi sekarang semakin bijak? Betulkah kenyatan itu sebenarnya? I doubt so people :)
Percaturan AF meletakkan Stacy sebagai peserta terakhir sememangnya bijak kerana saya sendiri antara yang tidak berganjak dari depan tv menantikan si cilik itu membuat persembahan. Antara Nadia, Riz & Stacy - percaturannya seorang di awal konsert, seorang di tengah konsert & seorang lagi di akhir konsert. Perasan atau tidak itu sudah menjadi formulanya sejak beberapa konsert yang lalu. Thank you Stacy for making every week of my watching the concert something worth it!! As usual, persembahan energetic yang ceria, suara yang selari dengan pergerakan tanpa bunyi "pancit" keletihan memang menyegarkan saya yang hampir layu dek persembahan hambar Riz & Nubhan. Tapi dek kerana lelehan airmata rupa seposen keduanya, undian mereka terus melonjak naik. Baguslah anak anak jantan sekalian, teruskan menangis pasti kamu dapat menjadi juara AF kelak. Dan sekali lagi pengundi pengundi telah menunjukkan tahap mentaliti mereka. Jujur saya katakan Riz wajar diselamatkan kerana mamat tu boleh menyanyi & menghibur. Nubhan tu mak aii menyakitkan hati ajer tengok dia menyanyi saban minggu. Berdasarkan persembahan selayaknya Nubhan yang terkeluar malam itu. Tapi memandangkan kejutan yang dirancang adalah tiada penyngkiran lega juga rasanya kerana undian Nadia merosot teruk. But its ok girl, we know you can go far & the votes that you got are genuinely casted due to your talent and not due sympathy.

Blues For Me.............

As I was doing my work while surfing the net (well my job does require me to surf the net you know :)); I suddenly missed all those cartoons I used to watch while I was still a kid. (The reason why I chose not to use the word "young" is merely because I believe I am still young - well at heart at least). They just don't make cartoons like the way they used to. I still remember watching Alf the sitcom & Alf The cartoon ;
Babar ; Bettle Juice (The beginning of the so-call Gothic cartoon I assume);
CareBears (Awwww so cute wish I can have it all);
DuckTales ; GhostBusters ; Gummi Bears ;
Flintstones ; Jetsons ; Johny Quest
She-Ra:Princess Of Power with her beloved twin brother
He-Man & the Masters Of The Universe; Transformers, ; The Smurfs (remember the rythm la la lalalala la lalalala); Heathcliff, ; Captain Caveman ;
Popeye, Pink Panther ;
Saber Rider & The Star Sherif
Scooby Doo (my all time favourite) ; Scrappy Doo - just to name a few.

I guess the cartoons nowadays are meant for the cyber generation. Continuation of older generations cartoons like Transformers & X-Men have seems to be taken by anime look alike. The cutie faces & round eyes. Kinda restricts the choices of cartoons. Yelah semua cartoon rupanya sama ajer, pun tak berapa best jugak rasanya.

Guess what I found on the net?! This website actually has all the episodes of Jem & The Hologram series. Wallawei and I thought they have been considered ancient or extinct huhuhu.

http://www.surfthechannel.com/show/television/Jem_and_the_Holograms.html

Apa lagi kengkawan meh kita layan bersama sama. Layan...........

Kesimpulannya setelah melakukan muhasabah diri sepanjang penulisan ini ternyata saya sudah semakin tua. Hadapilah kenyataannya.

P/s : Penulisan kali ini saya tujukan khas buat Azreen yang selalu merungut kerana blog saya terlalu penuh dengan perkataan yang melampau banyak sehingga tidak larat untuk dibaca. For you Azreen - hambik kau!!!

Ouija Board Anyone???

Hm, as usual the main choice for our movie selection is the one with the theme horror - though each time :) & Azzam will be voicing out their disagreement. Well this time around we have chosen another horror movie shown in Cineleisure . But this time out of curiosity we have chosen OUIJA - a Philippines Horror Movie. Though I must admit at first we were a bit sceptical about it. Why? Reason #1 : Never heard or watched any famous horror movies from Philippines. Reason#2 : The Philippines products that are usually shown on the televisions are soap-operas which are very lengthy and stereotype. (I was never really a fan of these soap operas anyway) Reason #3: The guy at the counter did mention thatno one is watching it for that session therefore we will be the only patrons in the cinema. After discussing; we (as in Lorna & I) decided to take a chance with the movie. Apparently, what the guy said was true; we were the only ones watching the movie - well that was what we thought too - until a couple came in right before the start of the movie. A short synopsis if I may "Half-sisters Aileen and Romina, along with first cousins Ruth and Sandra, reunite in Camiguin to bury their grandmother. Accompanied by Sandra’s friend, Lucy, the five girls dare to call on the spirits of the dead when they find their old Ouija board from when they were kids. The Ouija board is burned by accident before they are able to finish the ritual, trapping a murderous entity around them.
As they begin to realize the terror that they have brought upon themselves, Aileen and Romina’s hostile relationship even become more strained, while Lucy’s sanity brings a heavy burden on Sandra, and Ruth’s boyfriend, Gino, is unknowingly pulled into the danger and horror that await all of them.
Confronted by imminent Death, the girls have nowhere to go unless they can identify the spirit and find out where it is buried. It is only by leading the spirit to its burial ground that they will able to release the spirit from theOuija Board and survive its fatal hauntings. - I copy this from wikipedia 100%. I was kinda lazy and therefore cut & paste was all I did.
On my experience watching the movie without strangers around (minus the couple of course) - wallawei best giler!!!! I did actually screamed due to the surprises actions and shots taken through out the movie. Selalunya control ayu ajer memanjang kan? Kali ni puas hati dapat meluahkan segala yang terbuku di hati selama ini hehehehe

Umbrella Versus Siti Payung :)

I believe all of you readers know the song "Umbrella" was originally sang by Rihanna. To the older generations perhaps they are more into Siti Payung - a classic Ghazal (if I am not mistaken). According to some articles in the internet; the song was actually intended for Britney Spears - no offense to all Spears fans out there but I do thank GOD that she rejected the song. I mean look at how sexy Rihanna was in the video clip but at least she CAN sing. Maybe Britney can beat the sexy thingy but definitely she can't beat the singing huhu.

Well anyway, I heard of a 'softer' version of the song twice - on the radio on my way home & then last Sunday while I was in Jusco Equinne Park on the way meeting my friends from high school. I asked Jai who was singing and he only mentioned about a mixed Japanese-Irish-English singer who made herself famous by singing through the YouTube (I guess its the trend nowadays right). So I search through the Internet - armed with the keyword "Umbrella Cover Version" up till the name Marié Christina Digby appeared on the wikipedia page. Well I'm sure that for those internet savvy out there it will be a piece of cake in finding this new singer, but it took me quite some time but when I eventually "found" her I was so happy. She's quite pretty to begin with and she's so talented if I might add. http://www.myspace.com/mariedigby

I just enjoyed listening to this softer version of hers as it sounded sweeter and more sincere. I mean when you want to tell someone that you love them or you will be their friend forever or you are seriously in a serious feeling with them (does it even make sense?) you would want to make it slow and focus and serious right? Don't get me wrong, Rihanna's version has nothing wrong with it but maybe it is a bot too funky or hippy for some old chap like myself hehehe. that is why I took Marie Digby's version to put it on my blog but then I noticed it stop working after a few weeks. I shall find way to either put it back. I am new to this blogging thingy and so I am still learning on how to have things added to my blogs. So please be patience ok :)

Did anyone notice that Salih Yaakob started singing the Siti Payung in an English version? Its known as Siti Umbrella, duh Umbrella = payung, get it? I know its just for fun but I think it does not give a good impression of c orrect English usage. As I look at media as a medium for learning and entertainment, the stations should aim as a mean to educate Malaysians, youngsters to be exact as the content are catered towards these people. I mean, one can see that my English is not perfect either, but I can assure you that I searched for words which I am uncertain of, just so that I don't send the wrong message across.

My "Ayah", grandfather was a headmaster who taught English during the British Era in Tanah Melayu or Malaya. And he was taught by a British teacher, therefore he can really speak like one even at the age of 8o ++ years now. And my father insisted that we speak English at home as I have growing nephews :). My Bonda and two sisters can speak English very well so basically there are no reason for me not to speak English at home and that is how learn to improve myself.

At times I feel sad when confronted with younger generations who can't even speak basic English for failing to realize how important it is. I mean there are a lot of ways to learn this simple language, we listen to English songs more than we do with Malay songs. At least for me that is, because it seemed that at times I can't even name a few Malay songs or Singers, or is that because I rarely listen to the radio hehehehe

Magazines are fun to read, even if its CLEO or Seventeen. I am taking these magazines as an example because those are the best sellers during my weekend job at BTC. My English 'teacher' The Star on Saturdays!!! Its cheap and very thick and I really enjoyed reading everything and anything, even the business section, though I easily get lost within the words and jargon huhuhu. My favorite column? The Katz Tales of course! I like reading about those adorable cats. Kinda remind me of my two ex-cats Jebab and Mac. I miss having cats around, but rest assured. Once I have my own house I shall have cats cats and more cats wakakakakaka.

Well, anyway back to the topic. I think it would be good to have one extra language other than your mother tongue. Even now the government are encouraging people to take up third language, Mandarin as it is the widely used language around the globe.

...Which kinda remind me that I haven't listen to those Mandarin subject cassettes for a long time now. Where could have I misplaced those cassettes? I think I oughta stop blogging and start searching now. Don't worry I will be back once I found those cassettes :)

Selamatkan Sufiah?!

Dalam kehangatan topik perbualan rakyat Malaysia yang berkisarkan gosip perkhabaran "Pak Lah Meletak Jawatan";

Math Prodigy at 13 is now a £130-an-hour - Begitulah tajuk suratkhabar utama di Britain yang mememaparkan gambar Sufiah dulu dan kini.

http://www.newsoftheworld.co.uk/3003_hooker.shtml SHE was a child maths genius who won a place at Oxford University aged just 13—but now the only sums Sufiah Yusof is interested in are the ones she earns as a HOOKER.
For sad Sufiah the daily equation she has to solve is simply sex equals £130 as she sells her body to punters over the internet.
The gifted girl with the winning smile had the world at her feet ten years ago and should be a rich woman by now—but last week she was busy subtracting her underwear for our undercover reporter in her dingy back street flat.
"Would you like to start your half hour now?" said Sufiah, 23, as she danced on the bed, displaying her body for examination.
Then she listed all the sleazy plus points she would throw in for our man if he took up her offer.
Calling herself Shilpa Lee, the former child prodigy still juggles with figures on a hookers' website, describing herself as a "very pretty size 8, 32D bust and 5'5" tall—available for booking every day from 11am to 8pm."
She says she is a "sexy, smart student" who prefers "older gentlemen"— but a former pal who has witnessed her downfall told us: "It is all desperately heartbreaking.
"With her amazing brain she should be able to make money any way she wants. But instead her life has spiralled completely out of control."
Life has never quite added up for Sufiah. Her descent into prostitution in Salford, Manchester, is the latest in a long line of tragedies to have engulfed her since the sunny day when she posed with her university mortar board for the world's press outside prestigious St Hilda's College

Our shock revelations today come in the week her domineering dad Farooq was jailed for sexually assaulting two 15-year-old girls as he home-tutored them in maths.
And he was always at the root of all her troubles— even as she passed the further maths A-Level she needed for entry to Oxford at the age of 12. In those days Sufia was a strict Muslim child who prayed five times a day and was subjected to her father's famous Accelerated Learning Technique.
Her days involved stretching and breathing exercises in freezing rooms to keep her brain attentive.
Sufiah would then study hard and be forced to play tennis with just as much intensity as fanatical Farooq drove her on. The routine was so effective Sufiah was seeded number eight in the country for under 21s.
But three years into Oxford, the 15-year-old sparked a massive police hunt after running away.
Abuse
At the time her father bizarrely claimed Sufiah had been kidnapped and brainwashed by an organisation seeking the key to her intelligence.
But Sufiah sent an email to her family describing her life under her father as a "living hell".

One message to her sister read: "I've finally had enough of 15 years of physical and emotional abuse. You know what I am talking about."
Sufiah was missing for two weeks before being found in an internet café in Bournemouth where she had been working as a hotel waitress.
She refused to go back to her parents and instead was taken into the care of social services.
It was then revealed that Farooq had been jailed for three years in 1992 for his part in a £1.5m mortgage swindle. Before that—at the age of 19—he had been sent to borstal for his role in a conspiracy involving £100,000.
Free from the spell of her father, Sufiah returned to Oxford to complete the final year of her Masters in Maths.
But she was now more concerned with enjoying herself—and failed to finish the course after meeting trainee lawyer Jonathan Marshall.
They were married in 2004 when Sufiah was just 19 and Jonathan 24. But the strains with her family were still there.
Despite being invited, Sufiah's parents and four brothers and sisters failed to turn up to the wedding.
Her dreams of a happy life with Jonathan were shattered when the couple divorced just a year later

Now, in her sad little flat, she uses her body to pay the rent. Sufiah met our man, posing as a punter, at the entrance to her building wearing a tiny skirt, leather boots and a tight t-shirt. She was carrying three mobile phones.
She laughed and joked as she led him to her small apartment where a bed was already set out in the lounge.
She told him it was £130 an hour and offered him a glass of water before putting some music on to a cheap portable stereo and nervously stripping down to her red lace bra and knickers.
Sufiah then peeled off her underwear and danced on the bed. She told him she did full sex with a condom and oral sex without protection.
After our man had made his excuses, Sufiah kept him talking by telling him how she was studying for a Masters degree in Economics on a part-time two year course in London.
The former prodigy added: "I've got exams coming up and I'm thinking ‘Oh my God!'"
Once described by her parents as "naïve and unstreetwise", she works alone from her flat without any obvious physical security or protection.
She even admitted to our reporter: "It's always a surprise who you are going to meet."
Cheerful Sufiah gave no indication of any sadness at the jailing of her father the previous day. On Wednesday Farooq, 50, was sentenced to 18 months at Coventry Crown Court for touching two 15-year-old girls when he was home tutoring them at maths.

At times I do envy these child prodigy because they are smart and everything seemed all planned out for their future, a certain future I mean. As compared to us who at times are struggling to even think about our future, an uncertainty. But then the pressure mounted up as a lot more is expected from them and this is a case that went bad. Somehow I get the feeling that she was being pressured to live up the idea of child prodigy which both her elder brother and sister refused to accept (I read that those two rather play tennis than being pressured). She got married and got divorce - the marriage might be due to having someone who can protect her from what ever it is that is pressuring her. I pity her, but then again with gift comes responsibility right? And God shall not impose things which you can not handle. But the key word is turn to HIM for support and guidance :)

I wish you well Sufiah :) and may God bless you always my dear.

Evening Day Blues For Me

Well, Lorna was on MC and so its just me & Baizura today. Us ladies are considered near-to-extinction species for the Evening Shift here in the office. Or shall I say the endangered species - it sounds better doesn't it? Considering that we are quite dangerous at times wakakakaka. Baizura was a bit concern as she knows that I normally spend my dinner time at the pantry with Lorna - but I told her not to worry as I have some things to do - which is updating my blog and therefore I won't feel all alone. Kelly Clarkson is here singing to me. :) I like her singing soooooooooooo very much. Suddenly the subject of my-ex came to mind - Kak Nina informed me a few months ago that he is to get married in March. So I guess he is now a happily married man. Good for him. Yes its true I can not forget him. Well, FYI I am not with amnesia you know. So whatever that has happened and whoever so that has crossed my mind are not easily forgotten especially in "extra-special" cases hehehehe.

I met him through the internet (yeah yah cliche - I saw that cynical smile but never mind I'll let it pass this time). We started out as friends. He had a girlfriend of 7 years but had to break up coz his mother doesn't like her - a complicated family affair situation I must say. They were somehow related. He was too weak in defending the relationship- I should have seen it coming but what do I know I was to blind (and not to mentioned stupid that time). Then his mom introduced him to another girl - a surprise awaits me; I know the girl! She was my "kakak angkat" during my high school. I was even the volunteered "Posto Girl" between her and her then BF. What a small world.

I know that the relationship between him and me was not meant to be because I am a true believer that guy should start first or in a different way of saying - to propose. But in this case it was me! Sigh, I do not know...but all I know is that I really loved him very very much and I just wanna be by his side. And so I popped the question during Ramadhan after a special night after a special occasion and after a special plea with God :) I do have normal conversational session with my God as HE had promised each and every one of us that HE will always be there for us.

I thought it was a bad move because he kept quiet for few days and I thought "You are such an idiot girl! You have had a nice friendship and relationship and you have done a very good job at destroying it"! At least that is what I thought before he called to say that he accepted it :) There were things which he have said to me on that night that I still remember and still make me smile till today. But if you don't mind, I would like to keep it to myself :)

Well, time flies and honestly no one spoke about breaking up but I noticed we were getting far apart in every aspect. Even when I was with him, he would talk about that 'kakak' I mentioned up there and also about the girl his mother was interested in, to match make with him. And that point of time, I was still his girl friend! Like I said, no one said anything about breaking up.

I was really heart broken, because he is (yes it's a present tense and not past tense - for some reason) my first love. Honestly, after that incident, I can only look at guys as friends and not more than that. Its very hard for me to comprehend but yes, friends is all it is. Its not that I forced myself to avoid relationships but I did not see anyone with the same feeling I had when I was with him. Pathetic, yup indeed I was and perhaps I still am. I do not know what's the future holds for me but I do know that HE is with me along the way :)

To be continued...

Malam yang Suram

Hm, two of my faithful passengers are now in the sleepy state & mind you; it's not even midnight yet! Well, to those who are not yet familiar with our working hours, its 4pm - 1am. So normally one would expect us to be sleepy around midnight. But I can see that Lorna is not feeling well - she's been coughing along the way to work just now. Jai was lying at the back seat of the car just now. We took a longer route since the traffic was rather congested from One Utama and since it was raining we dare not used the LDP highway. We did once and there was a small flood over at the Western Digital area heading towards the LDP Toll and because of that we arrived half an hours late to the office. We arrived late today, but not as late as if we were to use the LDP highway. I was late about 15 minutes, Lorna & Jai about 10 minutes. Why was it different? Because I usually dropped them up at the entrance and went to look for a parking. There's a parking up the main entrance; but its either meant for the MSC's Visitors or reserved. I have to park my car along the main road and then moved my car to a nearer spot during my break time at about 715pm. Yup that's how it goes everyday of my working life here in Cyberjaya hehehehe.

As for me, I was not really sleepy. Not even tired. I am not sure if its due to my "oversleeping schedule" or the Power Root Per'l Cafe Kacip Fatimah which my Bonda gave it to me a few days ago. FYI , my Bonda informed me that she just wanna have a taste of the Tongkat Ali Cafe that was in the Per'l Cafe's package. Those who is a regular drinker of the Power Root series of herbal drinks would notice that in each package there will be an extra 2 sachets of other herbal products of the same company. A good way of promoting the rest of the herbal drinks in the Power Root products if I may say so. Well, it certainly got my Bonda into purchasing it right? And Bonda did say something to add to it - "Ibu pergi PERNAMA tak tahu nak beli apa jadi Ibu belilah benda ni, tapi Ibu cuma nak rasa yang 2 paket tu ajer sebenarnya." Women and buying power hehehehehe. Hey, I ain't complaining coz I got free drinks right? I think this one tastes better than the canned cafe. Normally I would buy the canned Power Root Per'l Kacip Fatimah with honey & dates. Power Roots suits my taste. But my Bonda enjoys the Orang Kampung brand more than I do. I don't mind drinking herbal drinks........as long as it doesn't taste like one. Yeah yeah I know - I am a weirdo so sue me :)

Well, its almost the end of the week, and not to mentioned the end of the month. A good thing is that its nearing the PAYDAY, yeah bebeh!!! The drawback - I don't think I will be able to recover from my drop-flat accuracy. It came down from a 97 -ish% to a mere 91%. Wallawei a dramatic drop man! Sob sob sob sedih tu. Well, have to gear up for next month now. Or else there goes the monthly bonus - kaching! Yea, saya mata duitan wakakakaka

As the title said so, I end it with a good rest and sleep :)

The Shutter

I resumed the activity of watching my favorite genre movie, horror aka ghosts stories. This time I am targeted "The Shutter", a Thailand horror movie. Maybe I am stressed and I need to DE-stressed myself by scaring myself. Does that even make sense hahahaha I don't think so.

As usual the hanging place was the Cine Leisure Movie theater. And so the movie begins....showing a couple meeting with an accident. One which the GF was convinced that she had ran over a girl. But the plot thickens when the BF's BFF all died in a horrific way shortly after the incident. The GF was very much sure that they were haunted by the girl whom she had ran over but was clueless as to who it was.

After much investigation, the 'ghost' happens to be the BF's ex college mate and ex-GF. But the girl had committed suicide after he decided to end their relationship. A shocking experience for them when they found out that the body of the girl was laid to decompose on her own bed in her house, when they came to share their experience with the girl's mother. After a proper burial, the GF was pretty much sure that they will be left alone only to find that more secrets are to be revealed by the 'ghost'.

A camera was found bearing pictures of the ex-GF aka 'ghost' being raped by the BF's BFF, and the person who actually took the picture was the BF himself! What the hell! That is so cruel wei, and not to mention heartless!!! It happens that the 'ghost' was once an awkward young lady who does not socialize that much and the BF was so embarrassed that he refused to tell his friends and even decided to break up with the poor girl. And when she threatened to commit suicide he went and told his friends. That's when they decided to rape the girl and asked him to take the pictures to keep the girl quiet.

I pity the girl very much. I mean she was really in love with the guy and out of embarrassment he just decided to go along with his friend's plan. Suckers! By the way, all along the guy was actually having a severe neck pain and on the same night that the GF left him (she decided to do so after knowing what the BF had done) he decided to take pictures of the room he was in, trying to look for the 'ghost'. And guess what, the 'ghost' was actually sitting on his shoulder all the time, hence the neck pain.

Pergh awesome revenge if I may say so. In the end he was admitted in an institute, for nutcase, I think and as the ex-GF left the room after visiting, you can actually see the 'ghost' in the mirror, still clinging to his shoulder.

I know that separation and break ups are very painful and can at times be a burden on your shoulder. But I had never thought it to be this way :). Literally portraying the "burden on the shoulder". Well, this movie is good enough for me. I like it very much and I honestly think its a good horror movie :)

Bahalol & Monyet

Hm, as we were standing at the Borders Booth at The Curve Councourse Area CT Yam came over. Why am I not surprised? Christine came slightly earlier that very same day. For all of you readers out there, Christine & Ct Yam makes a slightly weird twin if I can say so - well this is my blog right? So I can definitely say so hehehehe. Ct Yam used to be our CO and Christine was my manager. They usually teamed together going to the banks early in the mornings of the shifts. Christine is a "Rebel" kinda manager. A gangho - I believe that's the word the Chinese usually used to describe these type of people. Normal youngsters slanga will be "Otai" I guess. Remember my "Tongue Clashing" with that Chinese customer who accused me of being racist? Christine stood by me even when those couples called her "Bitch". She stood by my side through and through. She even stood by my decision not to apologize to the &&&&&& ***-#### customer. I liked to tease her by speaking in Malay. Its not that she does not understand its just that when we talked too fast; she easily got lost in the conversation. "Aiyah, what are you guys talking about"? She would be asking me. And I would continue teasing her - "La Boss, if I kutuk you in English it will be no fun lah cause you would be able to understand me wouldn't you? Hehehehe."

"Aiyah, so bad lah this girl," She would say, before turning to go away and make herself busy helping us out at the Register usually. Well, eventually those two have plans to meet up for a short while & now Ct Yam is stranded here at The Curve. Well, anyway back to the current situation

Ct Yam asked me out of the blue "Kak, akak ada krisis ke dengan Kak I**?" That question sorta caught me by surprised.

"Why", I asked.

"Takderlah saya YM dia, dia tak jawab. Mesej pun tak reply," she answered me nicely.

"So what makes you think that it has got anything to do with me," I asked her back. Knowing CT Yam, she will try her best to not to tell what she heard until I informed her of my side of the story.

"Hari tu saya ada datang beli buku lepas tu Kak I** suruh Margaret shelve buku semula. Dia ada sebut lebih kurangnya macam ginilah, "Entah monyet tu hendak ker tak hendak entah." Saya pun tanyalah siapa monyet Kak I**. Dia kata kakak engkaulah. Saya tanya siapa, dia sebut nama akak. Tu yang saya tanya tu."

"Entahlah Ct Yam, akak pun tak reti nak cakap. Tapi memang akak adalah lawan cakap dia dan macam biasa barangsiapa yang lawan cakap dia akan di anggap musuh," I replied back. I was actually tired of her nonsense charade actually.

"Yealah, macam mana boleh jadi macam tu kak," asked CT Yam wanting to know the story. Well, I don't blame her either.

"Ada satu weekend tu akak kerja di atas dengan Jimi, Zana MC so tinggal kami berdua ajer. Akak ajak Jimi pergi makan sekali. Dah pukul 2 petang tu Kak I** call, tanya akak tak reti-reti nak turun? Akak jawab sekejaplah kak, budak petang tak naik lagi. Then akak turun dengan Jimi and the 3 of us walked to the Teh Tarik Place. Tengah berjalan tu akak teringat yang dia ada benda dia nak cerita pagi tu tapi tak sempat sebab masing masing ada kerja, so akak pun tanyalah dia "Apa yang akak nak cerita pagi tadi kak?" Tiba tiba dia jawab dengan nada bengang "Malas nak cerita bukan boleh percaya sangat mulut mulut orang nih, ada ajer nak menyampai karang. Malas nak percaya orang - lebih kurang macm itulah dia cakap. Akak tersentaklah kan, akak terasa macam dia tujukan dekat Jimi pulak; sebab yelah memang dari pagi tadi dia nak cerita pada akak kan, takkan dia sound akak pulak. Akak diam ajer lagi. Then akak bercerita dengan Jimi - pasal akak plan nak buat aktiviti mewarna untuk bebudak minggu ni sebab akak dekat Concourse kan, takder orang nak tolong Azreen buat recovery. Tetiba dia menyampuk "Ala, nama pun orang kalau kau suruh buat diorang tak mahu tak ada diorang nak buatnya."

"Kalau kita letak memang diorang akan buat sebab tak semua budak budak yang di tinggalkan mak bapak tu pandai membaca, ada yang budak kecik lagi. Bila diorang tak reti membaca diorang rosakkan lah benda benda yang keliling tu sebab bosan kan? Dulu memang kerap jugak kami buat, tapi lepas tu IT hentikan. Bolehlah suggest dekat dia semula nak buat balik aktiviti tu." Tetiba dia membentak naik suara dengan akak, nak marah marah "Tulah korang buat benda main buat ajer, nanti esok esok dia membebel dekat aku jugak. Penatlah nak dengar dia membebel!"

Akak jawablah balik,"Kalau akak tak nak dengar dia membebel janganlah layan dia. Sebab akak nak dengar, dia membebel lah dengan akak. Dengan kita orang takder pun dia membebel. Sebab kitaorang tak layan."

"Ko jawab senang lah - IT tu sampai ke mana pun dia cari akak kalau nak bercerita. Dah tak boleh nak elak," dia jawab.

"Kalau akak tak nak dengar dia membebel, akak beritahu dia yang akak tak mahu dengar dia membebel. Akak cakap aja, tapi dengar jugak," terus kami tak bercakap lagi dah. Akak dengan Jimi plan nak makan roti canai tapi bila kenang kena tunggu lama nak menantikan roti canai sampai, kami sanggup beratur nak amik nasi. Orang tak sukalah masam masam muka menghadap rezeki, suwei tahu. Lepas tu dia terus tak mahu bercakap dengan akak. Akak pulak pergi mampus lah kan, kau suka suka herdik orang tak heranlah kalau orang pun menjauhkan diri dari kau.

Dia kalau bercakap asyik nak mengherdik ajer kerjanya - tak boleh ker cakap elok-elok. Apa mak bapak dia lupa ker hapa nak ajar adap sopan. Padahal dah berkeluarga dah tu. Budak budak tak cukup umur kau nak herdik herdik bolehlah, dengan orang dah berumur macam hamba ini - sekali dua bolehlah sabar tapi kalau dah kerap jadi meluat jugak.

Well CT Yam just smiled, she knows that as bad tempered as I am I shall not shout at people for no reason. That's crazy. But I told her its ok, once she has come back to her senses she will be fine. "Layan kan jer CT Yam and just don't talk about it. Let it past" and she smiles at me :)

Come to think about it, the three monkey policy "Speak no evil, see no evil and hear no evil" hehehehe. I can't and refused to be surrounded by negative vibes. Not good for the brain and soul, but I must admit that its very difficult to stay away from it as it happens everywhere and anywhere. So please help me God :) please help to push away all the bad things that might affect me negatively, Amin :)

Pilihanraya 2008

Rasanya bahang Pilihanraya yang sudah pun selesai proses pengundiannya semalam masih terus di perkatakan. Apatah lagi dengan kekalahan teruk seperti yang di jangka oleh Tun Dr Mahathir. Mana silapnya? Hehehehe saya bukanlah orang yang sesuai untuk merperkatakan tentang senario politik itu? Kenapa? Saya hanyalah orang yang membaca suratkhabar yang bernaung dengan kerajaan pusat, menonton televisyen yang juga bernaung dengan kerajaan pusat & mendengar radio yang rata rata juga adalah pro kerajaan pusat (walaupun mereka berstatus swasta). Kesimpulannya, saya hanya mendengar & membaca apa yang kerajaan mahu saya dengar dan baca, tidak begitu?

Jadi apa yang bakal saya tulis ini adalah dari pemerhatian saya yang buta politik. This is only through my observation of the current thing that I have read or listen through the mass media. Kelihatan pada pilihanraya kali ini, kerajaan pusat seakan akan terdesak dengan program jentera pilihanraya yang boleh saya tafsirkan sebagai kucar kacir dan tidak tentu hala. Sebaik sahaja pengumuman pembubaran dilakukan oleh Perdana Menteri, keadaan sesetengah perwakilan seperti gelabah, bingung, hilang akal atau dalam erti kata mudahnya takutkan posisi yang disandang akan terlepas ke pihak lain. Cerita berkenaan calon pilihanraya yang bakal di kemukakan kepada Perdana Menteri untuk persetujuan meletakkan mereka sebagai wakil BN di setiap negeri menampakkan warna warna yang pelbagai. Not a smooth start in my opinion.

Tambah buruk lagi dengan hujah berdegar degar BN yang terdesak sungguh mahu menawan Kelantan - hingga terus menjayakan rancangan penubuhan Universiti Malaysia Kelantan. Setelah setengah abad Merdeka baru kini Kerajaan Pusat mengambil berat soal pendidikan anak-anak Kelantan? Bukankah nampak kesungguhan Kerajaan Pusat menganak-tirikan Kelantan? Hutang 1Bilion Kelantan? Hm, pelik bunyinya kan? Kenapa pelik? Sebab rasanya Mursyidul AM PAS tidak mempunyai kebolehan langsung untuk bermain rasuah! Jadi kalau demi keperluan Bekalan Air Rakyat, Kerajaan PAS terpaksa berhutang - persoalan saya mana perginya duit peruntukan itu semua? Pst bisik seorang teman, dana itu kan datang dari Kerajaan Pusat. Maksudnya' tanya saya. Maksudnya, Kerajaan Pusat boleh menahan dana dari di salurkan kepada Kerajaan Negeri. Wallawei, macam tu ker? Abis macam mana dengan nasib rakyat, tanya saya lagi. Kesan memang kepada rakyat kata teman saya lagi. Hanya kerana bersungguh sungguh mahu menunjukkan betapa Kerajaan Negeri Kelantan di bawah pimpinan Mursyidul AM Tuan Guru Nik Aziz itu tidak stabil atau dengan kata lain tidak layak memerintah itulah cara BN menunjukkan kuasa mereka.

Hm, penyelamat atau pengkhianat? Tapi seperti yang saya katakan tadi ini berdasarkan apa yang saya dengar dan baca sebab saya cuma manusia kerdil yang tidak bercampur dengan golongan atasan yang lebih memahami senario politik dan terlibat langsung dengan semua agenda politik negara. Menyerang PAS tanpa alasan & kes yang kukuh adalah suatu perkara PALING BODOH yang pernah di buat BN. Pas rileks ajer. BN pulak yang berdegar degar nak menumbangkan PAS - dengan manifesto pembangunan yang pelbagai kononnya hendak di bawa. BN hendaklah memahami apakah konsep pembangunan yang dimahukan oleh Rakyat Kelantan. Mereka pastinya tidak perlukan bangunan pencakar langit yang mahal mahal atau eksotik kalau sekadar di jadikan kasino atau kelab malam, mereka tidak perlukan kereta ratusan ribu ringgit kalau itu hasil dari duit rasuah.

Menurut adik tersayang yang pernah menuntut 3 tahun di sana; kehidupan di sana memang damai berbanding kota kota metropolitan yang lainnya di Malaysia. Pendapat saya, sekiranya BN benar benar serius (bukanlah mengatakan selama ini mereka tidak serius) mahu menawan Kelantan apa yang perlu mereka lakukan ialah mendengar apa yang dimahukan oleh rakyat Kelantan, bukan apa yang di mahukan oleh BN untuk rakyat Kelantan. Ibarat menjawab soalan peperiksaan - You don't aswer what you know but instead you answer according to the questions. Benar PAS bertunjangkan Islam sebagai aturcara perjalanan politiknya,(bukankah seharusnya begitu kan?) tapi mengapa tidak timbul soal krisis kaum dan sebagainya? Kerana mereka prihatin dalam menangani isu isu berkait rapat dengan perbezaan budaya, agama. Kestabilan ini yang menggamit rakyat agar terus mengundi PAS di bawah pimpinan Mursyidul AMnya sejak sekian lama Tuan Guru Nik Aziz Nik Mat. BN takder isu sebenarnya nak menentang PAS, jadi yang timbul ialah isu isu (yang tidak boleh dipanggil isu pun sebenarnya) yang poyo, personal, dan yang entah apa apa. Isu pemimpin PAS tidak mahu bersalam dengan calon BN, isu pemimpin PAS membenarkan calon calonnya membalas cemuhan BN, isu pemimpan PAS menyamakan mereka yang tidak berpegang pada Islam seperti Orang Utan etc. Kawan kawan nilaikan sendiri apa relevannya isu isu sedemikian dengan soal rakyat Kelantan?

Jangan di serang keperibadian pemimpin pemimpin PAS kerana, rakyat Kelantan lebih mengenali & memahami keperibadian pemimpin mereka. Itu suatu pokok soal yang lemah yang di bawa BN dalam usaha menawan Kelantan. Selain dari isu mahu melunaskan hutang 1 bilion itu, tiada isu lain yang dimainkan oleh BN, selain isu emosi personal antara pemimpin 2 parti tersebut. Sememangnya walaupun saya sendiri merupakan penyokong UMNO - saya memang menjangkakan PAS akan terus dapat bertahan di Kelantan. Terasa sayang pulak kalau BN berjaya menawan Kelantan.

Namun kali ini bukan sahaja di Kelantan, malah beberapa kawasan utama juga berjaya di pelopori oleh PAS. Hebat kali penangan PAS di seluruh negara kan? Para pembaca yang terbaca sila ambil perhatian sekali lagi. Ini adalah pernyataan berdasarkan pemerhatian & pendengaran saya yang buta politik. Tapi saya mengalu alukan kenyatan para pembaca yang lebih celik politk untuk membantu saya memahami senario politik ini, kali ini. Yup, especially you Zul :)

Lain kali untuk cerita yang lain pula

Office Politics

Hm, I don't really remember the exact date when I actually knew the politic thingy that happened in the office. All I remember was it was on a Saturday morning and after the morning's briefing I went to the "Kids Heaven" to do my work as usual. Then as the store almost opened, a staff asked me "Akak dah dengar cerita pasal Sang Kancil?" "Which one?" I asked. I do know there's a few stories in regards with the Malacca's mascot. The staff looked at me puzzled. "Cerita Sang Kancil?""Yelah, yang mana satu? Kan ker banyak cerita Sang Kancil?"I asked again. "Oh, akak tak tahu ker? Tak tahu takperlah. Ingatkan akak dah tahu. Tak mahulah cerita." Ok, this I don't like. A half way story which left me clueless. So, I asked her again whats its all about. The staff hesitated before proceeding with the story (after I "pujuk" her slowly to share the story with me). Well here it goes-----

"Kami ada buat karangan dalam folder kak. Kami namakan Sang Kancil. Bendanya macam sambung sambung ayat jadikan ceritalah. Cerita pasal macam macam segala apa pun lah, banyaknya pasal benda dalam store lah."

"Simpan dalam folder?", I asked. The staff nodded. Hm, such an un-wise move, don't you agree?

"Tapi entah macam mana Boss boleh dapat tahu'" the staff continued.

"La, dah simpannya pun dalam PC store memanglah dia boleh tahu. Korang pun agak agaklah kan?" I said. Obviously if you are saving something inside the PC which is accessible to everyone, its not a miracle if the Boss managed to find it.

"Tapi kami dah delete benda tu sehari sebelum Boss masuk kerja."

"And you think that management could not find a way to detect it?"

"Boleh detect ker benda dah delete kak?"

"Entah yea, akak pun tak tahu sebenarnya. Tapi from what I heard; you can trace the things from the deletion bin. Tak tahulah betul ker tidak." The staff just nodded. What happen next?"I asked.

"Kami kena panggil beramai ramai kak. Mengadap lah kena tegur Boss. Tapi yang agak kecik hati tu, macam kami ni tak buat kerja langsung. yang sorang tu di puji puji yang lain di tegur teruk. Mana boleh macam itu. Sya ni tiap tiap pagi meng"alpha" tempat saya, tapi de"generalize"kan tak buat kerja. Saya faham lah yang sorang tu memang di puji tapi dalam Islam pun ada kata seorang ibu kalau nak puji anak dia kena secara personal supaya anak yang lain tidak kecil hati". I just smiled.

"Well, dia pun bukan ibu kita kan? Tak semua orang pun tahu konsep tu. Seeloknya biar tegur dan puji secara general. Kalau ada rasa nak tegur atau puji secara perseorangan, seeloknya biar disediakan teguran & pujian untuk setiap individu yang terlibat dengan perjumpaan itu. Supaya takder yang terasa hati. Tidaklah nampak sangat seolah olah kita melebihkan orang yang tertentu. Itu pendapat akaklah kan. Tapi still akak rasa memang korang salahlah. Salah konsep nak mengumpat & mengutuk. Kenapa mesti nak tulis dan tinggalkan dalam folder? Kenapa biarkan diri korang terlalu vulnerable. Memang macam korang sengaja nak biarkan diri kena marah. Saja biar orang cari peluang untuk mencari salah korang. Dah tahu selalunya orang beranggapan yang di atas tak sesibuk di bawah, you guys kena selalu make your place better or perfect. Tak mahu senggang senggang sangat."

What more can I say? I am not supposed to side with any party here. I remembered Big Boss's advise- come to work, be happy then go back happily. Don't get involved with the office politics. Why? Because it seems there are some people who enjoys twisting my words to their advantage. Not saying anyone but Big Boss did remind me that it had happen, so I should be extra careful with what I say and to whom I say it.

Later when more staffs came in, I heard more "Luahan Hati". Too many that it can by itself turn into a novel plot. Interested to know? Cheh, I knew it. People sure like to listen and take part in gossips huh? How shall I begin, seems like everyone is voicing their dissatisfaction. But I think its because they trusted me..or because they know that I may as blunt as telling these people off. Hmm I am not really sure about that. But I do know that as a senior staff I need to calm them down and try to knock some senses in these younger generations.

So far my slow talk seemed to be able to calm them down and make them think about the rationale of doing things...and not get caught doing it. Simple mantra of mine "Please everyone and you please no one". So kids, its ok to have make a blunder and learn from it ok :)

As a lesson learn, avoid office politics and be careful. Take care of yourself, especially yourself dear people :)